I was into this guy since forever. I know this sounds a bit
too cheesy but all through my freshman year I just stared at him from behind
the pillars and statues, never finding enough courage to walk up to him and
blurt it out. No, I am not a chicken, I am
just… careful!
OK, fine.. maybe I AM a little scared but ..hey, it’s
just normal to be a bit of a chicken! L
He was in the football team. I have never been a football
fan but I went to each and every match he played, JUST to cheer him.. Not that
he knew I was there cheering for him but still for my own satisfaction or
rather the satisfaction of that stupid love struck girl in me. Whatever! I was
there anyway.
And the strangest thing is that he never noticed my
obsession. He never acknowledged the coincidence that I would just happen to be
everywhere he went. It was like I don’t exist, which made me feel ummm
invisible.
One day, my best friend Jesse came up to me with an offer, nnaaaahh, not to go out with him, he would rather swallow his toe than do that. He is my
best friend since kindergarten. He asked me to sing for him. I mean actually sing for him. U know where you
have all the people playing instruments and the music papers are arranged and a
mike and a recording.. ummm yea, so you have an idea now.. *clearing my throat* so yeah, he came and
asked me to sing which was very surprising because Jesse usually really loves
to shut me up.
I agreed of course. I mean I was so busy with my term papers
and all but Only because of jesse who insisted vigorously that I sing, I accepted
his offer. I wasn’t interested otherwise. Who wants all the fame and papparazi?
And people asking for your autographs and you get to wear those awesome designer
clothes and get invited to the Oscars.. yaayyy.. I honestly did it for jesse only.
By the time I entered my sophomore year, I was over the initial shock of my university life and
was very much back to my normal self who didn’t scare people off with
expressions and vocabulary and not to mention sense of humor and failed
attempts to look cooler than an iceberg.
I had died a lock of my hair in blue which suited my
brunette hair. My signatures style was pretty much back and I felt totally at
ease. Jesse and me were having a great
time doing all the music stuff after school. My grades were going very good, I
loved my subject, my teachers loved me, life was great.
It was a nice summer day, I was wearing my favorite pink
trousers with the white shirt which said ‘I am the princess of everything’
.. haha.. I know a bit too much but who
cares. I was walking down the hallway towards the library when out of nowhere
that cute guy appeared. Oh did I mention his name? it was Micheal. Yes, Micheal came right out of nowhere and
stood right infront of me and gave me his best smile which melted my heart like
chocolate and of course I pretended not to recognize him when in real I was
about to tap dance. ‘yes?” I asked with a straight face which was the most
difficult thing to do.
‘Maggie? Is it?” he
flashed that smile again. Gosh!
‘yes.’
‘ how are you Maggie?’
‘M fine. Sorry but do I know you?” YES, my heart screamed. ‘He is the one you
dream about, remember?’
‘ Me?’ he sounded a bit shocked which was understandable
because everybody in the campus knew him. ‘Oh yea, sorry. My name is Micheal.
Micheal kepner.’
‘ Oh what can I do for you micheal?’ my innocent smile . he
stared at me for a second and said ‘I … was just wondering what are you doing
this Saturday?’
‘OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!’ My insides screamed with such
intensity that I suspected that he would hear them talking to me which would
sound really creepy.
‘I am free , actually’ I replied very calmly.
‘Great. So how about
ummm going to movies and grabbing a bite?’
‘sounds good.’
‘Great. Pick you at 8?’
‘sure.’
And as he went in the opposite direction, I snapped out of
that state and realized what had actually happened. He asked me out. Micheal
asked me out!
Where’s my stupid phone, I got to tell Jesse… but of course
Jesse is at his stupid job. I left him a message.
My first date with Micheal went great. He was actually a very nice guy. I loved him, I mean I loved him even before
he asked me out but now I loved him differently.. Think of it as my level 2
love. A bit more intense.
And this romance could have gone on forever had Micheal not
started dropping off hints. Urrgh, as much I am open and all, there is this
phobia. I am sure it has no name because its undiscovered mainly due to the
fact that only I have it in this whole world and I haven’t told anyone
yet. Iets just say that I am allergic to
proximity. I mean too much of it.
Especially when it’s asked for repeatedly and too soon and
from the person I really like. It annoys me. And I discussed it with Jesse. He
totally agreed with me. It really helps to have his opinion in life because
that makes me feel so un-freaky. I mean , two people can’t be wrong about one
thing, right?
At the same time, the album me and jesse had recorded.. it
went viral. People actually listened to those songs over which I insulted jesse
so much. They sounded dud at that time, literally. I am sure, the success was
all because of my magical voice but of course I didn’t take all the credit.
Jesse deserved 5%. After all, He convinced me to sing.
That year was so happening for me and I was so happy. Nothing
could have been better than this. It was my birthday and I was invited to Michael’s
parent’s small shack for a special celebration. He had arranged a party just
for me. I was still with him, keeping him at a hand’s distance. I really liked
him.
Everything was perfect until I reached with the limits of
the front porch, from where I could just listen to every word Micheal was
saying to his friend. The invisible guests had already rung a bell but I had a
little hope in me that they’d be hiding in the corners waiting to surprise me
with the balloons and all but I guess Micheal actually meant it when he said I’d
be surprised.
I didn’t go inside. Of course, I wasnt about to walk into a
trap. Do I look stupid?
I returned and he kept calling me but I didn’t receive any.
I was with Jesse, crying my eyes out. I felt so insulted. For the first time in
my life, I felt like a piece of flesh and not a human. It took me days to snap
out of that misery. Jesse struck by me, encouraging me to let it pass. But how
could I? I loved and respected a person and all along he kept thinking about me
as a commodity. The horror of the plan was still in me.
And the fact that he kept calling me, telling me that I was the one who broke his dreams . The fact that everything was shattered because
of me. I was the reason that it hadn’t worked out and that he loved me!
After a few weeks, we had our first musical evening. Once
again Jesse convinced me to do it saying that my time was too precious to be
wasted like that. That I deserved better and that I shouldnt let a scumbag destroy
me. Jesse was right.
At the night of the show, I felt confident but a part of me wasn’t
ready. I concealed that part.
The show was going awesome. The crowd was amazing and the
response was overwhelming. I was enjoying all the attention when from the stage
I saw Micheal, making his way to the dance floor with a blond girl. What a
nerve!
I kept my cool and finished the song. After that I went to
Jesse and let him in on my plan. The un-ready part of me, was fuming now. I had
reached my threshold. Payback time.
After a minute, when the music started, I spoke in the mike
‘This song is dedicated to the person I respected, who turned out to be a creep. I loved him and he
knew it and didn’t respect that. And right now he is standing in the crowd with
another girl.’ As I said those words everyone turned and looked directly at
Micheal. We were together, it was an open secret. I saw that blond girl taking
two steps back from him. It made me smile.
And I sang:
“You can say you're bored
- if you wanna
You can act real
tough - if you wanna
You can say you're
torn
But I've heard
enough
Thank you... you
made my mind up for me
When you started to
ignore me
Do you see a single
tear
It isn't gonna
happen here
At least not today,
not today, not today
'cause
If you're over me,
I'm already over you
If it's all been
done, what is left to do
How can you hang up
if the line is dead
If you wanna walk,
I'm a step ahead
If you're moving
on, I'm already gone
If the light is off
then it isn't on
At least not today,
not today, not today”
Jesse hugged me, re assured me. I wiped off my tear!
The show was a success!
Some people are so not worth all the attention in life
because no matter how hard you try they will always stab you in the back and no
matter how much u want to keep them, they will find a way and slither out. That’s
in their nature. So when u come across any such person, don’t take the blame. Shield
yourself, believe in yourself and don’t stagger! Some people are like
infection. They invade your body, occupy it for some time and eventually leave
you for good!
And what happened next? With Jesse around, guess it
yourself. J
